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Thursday, January 16, 2003

I received in the mail today my divorce papers. I have to sign them & send them back tomorrow & then Bobby will be served. I should probably feel something, but I don't. Just numb. I had to turn my emotions off a long time ago to keep from going insane. I wonder when I'll get them back on a "normal" basis. If and when I do, how different of a person will I be? He once said to me that was the thing he was most sorry about, that he changed me. I don't know that I would want to be that person again. No one stays the same anyway, every experience you have changes you in some way. I just wonder if this is me now or am I still going through some kind of healing process? Ever since I left I've said that I don't want to be in another relationship. I don't want to let someone get that close to me again. I can't go through it again. However, lately I've been thinking that maybe I am ready to try the boyfriend thing. Now that I've had some distance, I kind of miss it. Hopefully that means the healing process is coming to a close.
Tina 12:18 AM

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I'm Tina, glimpse my world. I'm a single mom, divorced, had to move home with the parental units (who are slightly insane), I have OCD, & I can make a short story long. View my profile here: http://www.blogger.com/profile/1096509 If you would like to contact me it's teanahbean@yahoo.com