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Thursday, January 09, 2003

This is how I feel at the moment...

Someone I don't even really know just made me cry. I hate that I'm so sensitive. I question why I'm so upset. A person whom I've been chatting with for the past few months just advised me he was removing me from his buddy list because we don't really talk about anything of importance & because he feels I have a "child-like mentality". This person lives in CA & doesn't really know me, so why do I care? Why does it bother me? Because deep down, I fear he's right. I'm afraid that I'm shallow, that I'm stupid, that I'm self-absorbed.

Everyone talks about looking forward to a New Year & what lies ahead. For me this time of year is always depressing. Instead, I think about what I have not accomplished over the past year & what I have failed at. The facts are that I'm almost 32 years old & I'm living with my parents, I have a failed marriage, a boring job & a beautiful daughter that I'm scared to death is going to grow up to be like me. I'm not happy & I don't know how to change that. I think that just about every decision I've ever made, has been the wrong one.
Tina 12:13 AM

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I'm Tina, glimpse my world. I'm a single mom, divorced, had to move home with the parental units (who are slightly insane), I have OCD, & I can make a short story long. View my profile here: http://www.blogger.com/profile/1096509 If you would like to contact me it's teanahbean@yahoo.com